Tomorrow it will have been 2 weeks of my unbeweavable hair journey and tomorrow i will be removing it.
Its been a very interesting 2 weeks of discovery and embarrassment (silently to myself) at the fact that i have actually enjoyed discovering myself through my hair do...more about that shortly...
Can we talk about the itchy scalp please! As it is not natural to have something sewn onto ones head and left there for more than 24 hours it is only natural that ones scalp will rebel and form a protective layer (as a good friend pointed out) also known as dandruff. It has been very difficult for me to access my scalp to moisturize it let alone wash it. I have managed however to find the perfect finger to use when i need to get through all the thread and scratch - as much as i would like to i would rather eat my left leg than have to reach for a toothpick to get in there (I'm sure my weaved-up sista's are thinking 'your itch isn't severe yet').
With all that said the last 2 weeks have been a sexual awakening for me. This thing on my head has made me feel sexy - i think its all the attention I've been receiving. It has made me question what beauty is and how far we have come in seeing our natural selves as beautiful (unfortunately not far at all). People i have known for years have been commenting on how 'hot' i look, which makes me wonder what they thought i must have looked like before. More importantly what did I think of myself before?!
As sexy, fabulous and gorgeous as i felt i miss my own hair, i miss its thickness, its blackness and its me-ness. I am happy to be going back to a self that i recognize. I would love to alternate between the many selves externally but i know that i cant do this again - it physically doesn't make any sense and its uncomfortable having a sealed scalp 24/7. I am a product of my environment in many ways but when it comes to my hair i am happy with my own.
Now lets see what happens when i return to factory settings...
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